Stories

Isn't it annoying when you have stories in you mind that you can't seem to get down onto paper (or into the much less reliable but for some reason more depended upon method of digital storage)? Well I have all these stories, and some I know I'm never going to get down [Gatekeepers] and then there are others that are just on the cusp [The War Story which I haven't really explained to anybody because none of it is concrete and it's all just been churning for a great deal of time, since around a year ago] and of course there are those that you start and then abandon because they're either utter shit [Primitive, Eden] or you're just utterly stuck [Lost and Found, Terror of Reality]. The last category is obviously those that you begin and then just don't ever seem to find time for [A Lesson in Human Dynamics]. I've really got to just get off my fucking ass (or onto it because I sit when I'm typing) and write Scene Two of ALiHD, or the next chapter of Terror or Lost. Kolyn you're a moron and a lazy fucktard, burn in hell you communist bastard.

Now that I'm done chewing myself out, I have a Position Paper I'm supposed to be writing for humanities about the nature of democracy. It's due on Tuesday, so naturally I'm being a total fuck and have been playing Hannah and the Ice Caves and watching Bridget Jones Diary, Enterprise, and Andromeda. Garr and fuck and collapse into a heap.

Cripes

I may as well just change the title to "Gripings of a Teenage Fag Obsessed with his own Homosexuality"

Agnarr (I already labeled a post that, didn't I?)

I don't know. Things are being annoying lately. I had a birthday recently. Last Thursday it would be, and in two says I'll have been 17 for a whole week. Why am I posting this? Because I'm bored and never talk to Rebekah on msn anymore because the internet is out (fucking telus), or people are on the computer, or Rebekah is in bed and asleep. It's annoying.

You know what else is annoying? The fact that I don't know who knows I'm gay. Ever since I found out Darcy knows I've been really paranoid (I wonder how many people are reading this and didn't know beforehand) of all these tiny comments that most likely don't mean anything but my mind is interpreting them as implications or inuendos and it's fugging pissing me off. Jesus Christ people, can't you just stop saying things that could be interpreted as a homosexual reference? You're really fucking confusing me and making me more paranoid than I used to be. Bloody Fascists.

I really do wonder who comes and reads this, if there is anybody other than just Rebekah and sometimes Kiora. Because if it's just them then I shouldn't wonder who's reading this and has thus discovered more about me than they expected. But at the same point I don't know, and for some reason feel perfectly free to sit here and type I'M GAY in big pink letters. Poor Kolyn and his rediculous sense of digital security. Maybe it's just that I want people to know but am too much of a coward to actually say it to their faces (this is true, in all absolution[is absolution a different word than i mean? yes, let's make is absolutivity]). Alright, well I suppose I should go to sleep so I don't sleep in tomorrow.

Thanks

Well we had our thanksgiving weekend. *a tremendous gasp sounds from the entirety of the United States as they point desperately at the calendar and try to explain to the ignorant Canadians that thanksgiving takes place in November* Daley was down, and actually still is. He's not actually in the house at the moment, but oh well, he rarely is when he's here anyway. When he arrived here on Friday he wasn't here an hour and he was already gone out to see a movie with a friend. And then nearly the whole time he was here he was taking the carpet out of his room and then cleaning the tiles in there. That room is going to echo now, I just know it will, and then it will be a terrible music room. Agh Narr.

Anyway, I'm bored now. I did most of my hum thing with the short stories. I'll have it done before first period tomorrow, the only bit I haven't done is the explanation of how it connects to conservatism. I used capitalism for Come All Ye Faithful, and I used liberalism for The Desctructors. But like I said, I'm bored. I'll finish Poodle Soup tomorrow and it will go online as soon as it's done.