Sleep

I can't sleep. I hate it when this happens, when I can't fucking sleep. S'absolutely infuriating. And I just sit up later and later doing absolutely shitall, and feeling more and more useless and lonely. And inevitably I end up wishing I had somebody here to hold me and keep me warm. I'm always warm during the day, but at night... at night I always feel cold.

Cold.

I wish I could sleep, when you're asleep you don't care that you're cold. Dead people don't care that they're dead.

Creative Juices

I need to do creative projects. Like... writing songs, or learning a instrument and then writing songs. Or writing, novels, short stories, plays. Or making a webcomic. Or I don't know. Something creative. Maybe an internet based game or something.
What thinkst people? I just need something productive in my life. Something other than School, Work, and Entertainment. SOMETHING!

I never say anything of consequence.

And yes, my entire life revolves around my being bitter and lonely.

Okay, not that I'm bitter (I'm fucking bitter, okay?), but why is it that nobody seems to show any interest in me? Like, in attraction terms I mean. Seriously? Do I have a signs around me that say "Danger, queer jerk ahead" to warn off anybody who might get the thought in their heads for a moment. In my life, there have been 2 people who have expressed any romantic interesting in me. One of whom is female (and who I only knew in jr high) and the other lives in Grand Prairie.
Not that I would necesarily accept any offer, but just a reassurance of some sort that I'm not a gargoyle and that the word hasn't gotten around of my assholery. And yes, it's all about bitterness toward all those gorram breeder couples. Fuckers.
Just one every once in a while. That's all I ask, just a little reassurance so I don't lose all hope.

Stupid fucking world. I need some chocolate, stupid 2:13 in the morning and the stores being closed and the Sev being 20 minutes away.
GARR!
*kills everyone*